Neglected.
I have been lacking in posting to this blog. I have good intentions, I just didn’t think there was anything interesting to share after the announcement of my pregnancy. Since becoming pregnant, my life has completely changed, which has thrown me for a loop. I didn’t expect to feel sick for 8 months. I was prepared for (a little) morning sickness, but this has been ridiculous. Each day I could have posted: not a whole lot new going on…feeling nauseous. I can only write that once or twice before it gets really old. Believe me, it has gotten really old for me. I have a new found respect and admiration for mothers everywhere, especially expectant mothers with little kids to tend to. I don’t know how they do it! I have been fighting the feelings of inadequacy that this little bean of a person has completely leveled me. I thought I was stronger than this! I am definitely learning lessons of letting go of my expectations, learning patience, and going with what was dealt me each day.
Now that I am getting closer to meeting my little girl (oh yeah, we are having a girl!) I have a new burst of energy trying to get things prepared around here for her arrival. The funny thing is, I thought having all this down-time would give me a chance to really dive into recording and writing new musical material, but the nesting instinct has trumped all that.
This week, I have been decorating the nursery. A concept that I never expected I would experience. It has been very surreal, putting away itty bitty clothing that will someday protect a human being. Doesn’t seem possible that we all start out that small. I started painting a “simple” mural on the walls that ended up being way more ambitious than I expected. I had a lot of fun doing it though. As soon as I got away from the guilt of not creating music, I realized that I am still creating…creating something of which I don’t yet quite get the magnitude. Painting murals on walls is just one of the many steps that I will go through in preparation of becoming a parent.
Now that the mural is complete, I am planning on getting back to writing. I have lots of emotions to process and music is the best way I know how to do that. I plan on posting some of my ideas here, so be on the lookout. In the meantime, here are some photos of the mural that took way too much time.
I started by designing the pattern on the computer and then projecting it onto the wall to trace.
